Locked away inside my mind,
She slips through the cracks and yet she is there
Negligence forgiven,
Differences placed aside we drink tea behind my eyelids
Shared laughs, shared pain, conclusions reached, lines drawn, finger paintings on my chest, in my chest, a sleeve perhaps, once in awhile
She kisses my forehead as she leaves
Back to the cracks
When my heart outgrows my chest she will return
Her hotel room will sit empty and for a moment she will be home
Behind my eyelids
My Muse
I wonder what it's like to eat bugs all night and make love all day.
Fly without a care in the world.
Sing my discordant love song, it bounces back to tell me you're close.
Even hanging upside down nothing makes the blood rush to my head like you do.
Lovebat.
Ice cubes, like cold lumps of hollow, flow through veins of quicksilver into my ancient heart.
Melting diamond soothes the bruises, prevents the swelling, eases the anguish, numbs the pain.
The cold makes muscles tense as I flinch, at first, then, stillness, bowstrings lose their tension.
A hot breath escapes my lips, an almost silent lament for arrows never let fly, I suck in the cool air.
I withdraw, into ice, into thought, into the void left by memories burnt on a pyre of regret.
Once again, part of me dies from the cold…so the rest can trudge on through the snow.
It used to be rain, but there is no warmth left in my heart, the fire
I've burned them all
Memories, thoughts, broken love, all fuel for a funeral pyre
Baptizing my own mind with fire
I stand empty
Nothing but ashes, more ashes...dust to dust
Even fallen angels cannot be a part of this world
This world of hate and hurt and passion and love and scars
They watch and wish for a part to play
I envy them, they have something to want, they don't understand
I cannot truly leave, and yet I'm never truly part of it
I stand alone
I stand empty
And I like it
I stand alone
I stand empty
I stand
Raindrops fall from darkened skies inside my head
Pounding into broken pavement half chewed by beasts of burden and destruction, all the same
A swordtip wet with the earth's bloody tears dragged along the tiny stones and tar, it scrapes a song into my mind of regret and hope and fear
I am the child of all the battles of the heart, forged in the wars of lives both past and present
I bring pain and clarity...great hopes borne on wings of great despair
My grip on reality is tightest when I have no grip at all...and everything slides into the night
Then I am at peace.
Your eyes are pools of stardust floating on liquid dreams
When they ripple with laughter I hear the world singing beneath my feet,
and would gladly drown in the moonlit depths of those pools,
so that my still heart could settle at the base of your sparkling mind...
... and be remembered
Where you walk, wildflowers burst into bloom,
I see them in my mind
When your voice rings in my ears, speaking my name,
it sounds like panpipes, played by the wind,
In tribute to some long lost Goddess of love...
... found again, in you
I won't let you see my tears,
Steering wheel made of barbwire bleeds my heart dry as it takes me home to loneliness.
I won't let you see my tears,
trying to find a sad song on the radio, they're all about love, but none of it like mine.
I won't let you see my tears,
remembered joy is remembered guilt, ecstacy a stolen gift, given freely from shaking hands that don't want to let go...but can't stay closed.
I won't let you see my tears,
Tears of broken pride and broken joy, shattered hopes and smoky dreams, curling up from bittersweet incense never to be seen again.
I won't let you see these tears, my tears...
...But I know you hear th
A weary weaver of mournful songs,
Trudged along the moonlit road,
His clothes were dusty and battered,
His purse nigh empty of gold.
His eyes were blue as the summer skies,
And his beard was dusty brown
His luck was dry and the inns were full,
So He'd left the townsmen in ale to drown.
He knew not where he wandered,
Seldom traveled were the paths he tread,
And he stopped by a quietly flowing stream,
To sip and rest his head.
He closed his eyes to the naked skies,
And waited for slumber to come,
But then he heard the birdlike singing,
And his heart beat like a drum.
He crept along the laughing brook,
In search of the lovely
A battered rose sings voicelessly on a windowsill
Dropped many times
Petals have left their beds, never to return
Once vibrant colors have faded with efforts of preservation
Lost fragments of spring are more visible in their absence
Once more dropped, swept from its perch it falls
Petrified bits of silk are swept from sight
The light from the window casts a shadow no more
"When life eats away at you,
And there is nothing you can do,
You have to see through the lie,
To conquer death, you only have to die..."
"But to the righteous truths are revealed,
Woes are confronted and wounds are healed.
If one keeps hope alive and strong,
Their moral compass will not lead them wrong.
So we must keep faith and feed the flame,
For it cleanses the soul........and soothes the pain."
In the black pits of my mental scars it seethes
A festering malignancy that yearns to crawl from its wretched dwelling
A drop of poison burning the center of my consciousness
As my anger grows the caged demon howls for release
It seldom ebbs and rests as I do, waiting to unleash another onslaught,
To breach its containment
This Rage
As the ground reaches up to be caressed by the night sky,
swords are bloodied by the sun's last rays.
As the land is gripped in shadows,
Dragons scream and men clutch trinkets to their chests,
gifts of their beloved.
The moon rises from it's faraway grave and casts its
cool silvery light,
calm and soothing.
The echoing cries of the dead are silenced as sleep takes hold,
tormenting the battlefield with dreams,
of Love…and War.
Blood watered roses reach up,
their roots scorched by the fires of my mind
Thorns draw more such sustenance from my body,
as the eternal flowers continue to burn and grow within the flames
The torrent of my thoughts crashes against walls of heat and passion,
steam rises, carried away on winds of futility,
evanescent as my search, a quest for something that eludes me.
Quiet peaceful waters
Flow like streams of tears
While sparkling faeries dance like moonbeams
Free of woes and bitter fears
Death is but a whisper
On a gentle summer's breeze
The end to life a new beginning
Beauty burning in autumn's leaves
Mother of Man Mother of Misery by Endarius, literature
Literature
Mother of Man Mother of Misery
Dew like tears, frail droplets of the earth's blood, flowing down her leafy cheeks
She feels our pain and weeps for us, but can do nothing
Daily we rape and torment her
Quietly crying, battered
Her sanity leaves her
Alone in the
Darkness
.
With dark eyes you watch me, they shimmer like black pearls, they laugh in the light, and yet danger lurks beneath the surface, in those pools of liquid beauty. But I know that I am safe, enfolded in a lover's arms, protected by that which frightens the ignorant; entranced by something fully grasped and yet undefined; tinted with love of a color indescribable.
I take in your scent, your warmth, your light, and I am saved from darkness…except that which is in your eyes, that which tempts and teases, seduces and entangles; that which I love most, the warmth and the danger in those dark eyes.
Rage, a dying fire
Cold ashes feel like down
Beneath my toes
A lonely tower, walls of ignorance
Burned to the ground
Labor of sadness
I don't care
I will play in my garden of ashes,
plant a flower in the dead coals,
watch it grow.
Current Residence: My own little world Favourite genre of music: Anything except country Favourite photographer: Terry Richardson Favourite style of art: Surreal Operating System: XP MP3 player of choice: Ipod Nano (4th Gen) Shell of choice: '45 Wallpaper of choice: Art Skin of choice: Female Favourite cartoon character: Spike Spiegal Personal Quote: "Insanity is my armor."
Favourite Visual Artist
I don't pick favorites when it comes to art typically...
Favourite Movies
I'm rather fond of Fight Club, The Star Wars trilogies, LOTR, Akira, and others.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
There are many; Loreena McKennit, Rhapsody, Linkin Park, Iron Maiden, Enigma...the list goes on.
Favourite Writers
William Blake
Favourite Games
Dungeons and Dragons
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
Writing implements, Emotion, Nikon D40 DSLR
Other Interests
Cooking,Philosophy, Martial Arts, History, The Occult, Theology